I’m AFAB, and pretty much up until high school that was what I identified with. Recently, I’ve been feeling that I might be a boy and I definitely experienced gender dysphoria as a girl, and euphoria when I first tried binding and presenting as male, but I also enjoy some feminine things and when I present as a boy for too long I end up anxious from trying to fit that mold too. I love using boy terms like uncle, boyfriend, or mister and I feel bad with aunt, girlfriend, or miss, but I also like skirts and blouses and things that are very much coded female. I don’t know what kind of pronouns I want to use; I like he/him but I’m scared to ask people to call me that, I might fit being non-binary more but I have trouble with they/them because I’m still getting used to those pronouns even being a thing since I was a fairly sheltered kid in this regard, and she/her doesn’t feel awful but it still feels wrong. I haven’t looked closely at other gender-neutral pronouns because those feel like the hardest to get others to use, but maybe one of those will fit better? I feel more comfortable with binding than with having boobs, but I think I might like a male body in connection with a feminine wardrobe? Like I want to physically be a man, and be referred to as such, but wear skirts and stuff still? But with that being said, I feel like a poser, trans-trender, etc for saying I’m trans while not making the effort to dress male? I don’t know if maybe I’m bigender or third gender or agender or maybe actually just a girl who hates her body or a boy who can’t forget what he was taught to enjoy as a girl, and I’m just super confused and hoping for guidance. I’m 14 at this point, I’ll be starting 10th grade in the fall, and I don’t want to feel this conflicted forever, so I figured i could ask you guys for help? Or maybe just screaming into the void will help my brain kick in and tell me what’s going on with me and I can figure it out.