Me and my LO are colleagues, we met at work, and both are lesbian and she is in a long distance relationship. We really bonded over our sexuality because the city we live in is very heteronormative so I think she really appreciates our friendship as we understand each other well. The issue is that I have a massive crush on her. She is being friendly, she is a genuinely kind person, one of the kindest people I’ve ever met, but my brain has a very difficult time knowing and recognising it’s just a friendship. For example, the other night I went round hers for a catch up and she made dinner for us, and because her house was very cold as it’s winter she decided we should sit in her room and chat. We literally laid next to each other under the duvet in her bed and spoke for 4.5 hours non stop about everything and anything. We have such deep conversations and I try so hard to not catch feelings but it’s difficult. It felt so intimate being in her bed with her. She said it was warmer in her bed (obviously, plus her room was freezing). Half of me thinks well why am I in her bed? She knows I’m a lesbian, she knows exactly who my type is (her), so why doesn’t she think it’s wrong? She sat there and told me all about her girlfriend and I felt uneasy. I was so jealous. She then proceeded to say how she loves having crushes, spoke about porn and sex only briefly, and when I said I should go home she basically said in a friendly why that I should stay. When we say bye it’s like we are lingering, I don’t know if it’s because we are both awkward people. She also said next time we should get a few alcoholic drinks in and smoke weed together. I know I shouldn’t have gone to see her because I knew my feelings would flair up. Half of me thinks that she’s just a nice friend and she’s being nice, she likes my friendship because we have so much in common, and she maybe isn’t thinking too much into us both in bed together like that. But at the same time, I would never lay in bed with a platonic friend for 4 hours because I’d feel so awkward. I feel so confused.