Today, I took my first step on the biggest journey of my life. I've finally let myself accept two simple facts; that I feel much happier and more comfortable being identified as a woman than as a man, and that if I could choose any body to have been born into, it would be a female one. Whether that means I am definitively transgender, or that I will end up transitioning, I don't know, but it's something I need to explore. So today I registered with my local GP and made an appointment. I felt so nervous I wanted to be sick. But I did it - I asked her for a referral letter to the closest Gender Identity Clinic. I told her that I had been questioning seriously for over a decade and everything I felt. It went quite well I think. She was not judgemental, though I could tell she was not well versed in the subject. This was a little village GP surgery primarily catering for OAPs. She asked a few questions - what my life situation was, how I'd come to this conclusion, etc. She did put a fair bit of emphasis on my sexuality, seeming a little surprised that I was not interested in men, but I suppose those kind of misconceptions are to be expected. But the bottom line is - she told me she would send off a referral and get the ball rolling. I can't believe I'm actually doing this! Excited, but terrified. Let's see where this takes me.
