Since I was 11 years old, I identified myself as an ftm transgender. My parents keep telling me that it’s some hormonal thing that happens during puberty, I’m 14 now and I still feel like I’m a guy. My parents won’t help me, they try to talk me out of it, they give reasons, tell me how many many people regret transitioning after they do surgery. How if I did want to detransition later I would never be normal again. How right now I am normal and that I could never be a real man. How people will look down on me. They tell me a lot more people regret transitioning later in life. I guess all this talk has gotten to me, am I really trans? Sometimes I feel I’m making it all up, just so I could have some attention. I want people to know but at the same time don’t, how would they react? I get really annoyed when people call me be the wrong pronouns sometimes, and sometimes I don’t react al all, am I just getting used to it or am I not trans? I mean, at school the sport t shirt REALLY makes our breasts look bigger than they really are, and it makes me really self conscious. Recently during the 36 degree weather I’ve been wearing the school rugby jumper to hide myself. I always walk hunched over when I’m wearing something thin, I don’t care what people say to me but my chest cannot show. I don’t know if these identify me as ftm trans or just a really tomboy girl. I have binded before until my parents stopped me. They banned me from binding. Once in a while I bind in my room, just for a moment, and it feels great, really great, like I’m myself again. I guess I’m just trying to find an answer now, have anyone else experienced something similar to me? Like I said I feel like I’m making everything up sometimes, is that some clue that I’m not trans? I just really wish I was born male all along, then non of this would have happened.