I have this feeling that even though I want to be seen as female, that I wish I had been born a girl, that I have this growing desire to transition, I just can't say to myself that I feel I'm female. I don't get how I can feel something like that. And because I've always been somebody that is logical and rationnal, I have a hard time understanding something that can only be felt. I also have the feeling of being "not trans enough", which just adds to my confusion and self-restrain. I know what I want. Well, I think I do. But I'm just full of doubts that forces me to justify my every thoughts. Because of these reasons, I get the feeling that I need someone's "seal of approval", even though I'm the only one that can deliver it. And that sucks.