So a little bit of a back story, I've pretty much had a normal life but here around 13 I developed a massive obsession with girls clothes ( I am born male ), specifically dresses, which over time started changing to me feeling like i was not right, so at a young age i researched and fantasised about having the funds to have my gender changed, this went away for a few years until i was about 18, at this point it started again and the more i researched it the more i wanted it, i am now 27 and engaged to a fiance which i love but still now i would give anything to go through the transition into becoming more like what i feel. The only thing that worries me is that i dont think i would be able to keep my job if i do change and i know i would lose my fiance and family, so now i dont know if i am just scared of the change or if im just fooling myself into believing this is something i want
Only you can answer for sure what is right for you. You should probably at least put getting married on hold until you are sure. My story is a bit different than yours but I did marry a woman and even had children, it was a disaster for everyone involved. It would have been better for me to not marry and just live as myself (a woman). Yes, discrimination happens and life can be tough, living pretending to be someone who I was not was even worse. In my opinion anyone who walks away from you for being honest about who you are is someone who you are better off without (though I do admit that it is very difficult to lose people, it hurts).
Thank you QuietPeace, i will actually keep that in mind, i really have been thinking more and more about it everyday for ages now, and i think i am finally at the point that it might be time to start finding some local doctors and councillors to take it a step further.