I’m in a long term relationship with my boyfriend of 6 years, and for the past 10 years I’ve known I’m bisexual, but no one knows. I am 100% certain, but I would commit suicide maybe if my boyfriend or family ever found out. I absolutely would dread his disgusted and disappointed response, and I would hate for him to look at me differently, the same with my family. I wish I came out to everyone years ago, but it’s too late to go back. I’ve chosen to keep this part of my life a secret, but it sometimes makes me really sad. I genuinely would kill myself before anyone found out, I’m that ashamed of myself. My family have all expressed their opinion on homosexuality and bisexuality- that it’s disgusting, a mental illness, parallel to pedophiles etc. There is no way I could ever let them know. Same goes with my boyfriend. I just want somewhere to vent. Part of me wishes I could have the experience of being with a girl just once, but I know I’ve made a choice. There is a girl I have a huge crush on at my uni, and I am so shy around her, she is so beautiful and I always fantasies about her, but I can never have her. God, she’s so perfect. I feel so guilty when I think about my bisexuality because I know I’m keeping a secret from my boyfriend, but simultaneously I would die if he ever found out.