Hi - I am 27 and been married to a man for three years. When I was 13 I came out to my mother, and she made fun of me and outed me to the rest of my family. From then on I dated men who were interested in me, it was the only way to survive in my household - but was never really physically attracted to them. I don’t know if this is psychosomatic, but sex makes me anxious and always really hurts, and I have never orgasmed from a man (TMI sorry). I’ve also struggled with an eating disorder, which completely killed my desire for years. Then I met my husband, who I love deeply. He is a wonderful man. But recently i have been finding it impossible to ignore the fact that I am just physically not attracted to him. It took me two years to tell my therapist that I was possibly not straight - and now the immense guilt and anxiety I am feeling is pretty awful. I feel insanely alone and frightened. And I don’t know what to do. I guess posting here is a start. Not sure what the point of this post is - I just need to be able to talk openly for once. I’m scared. What do I do? I hate feeling this alone and stuck.