Hi I’m a teen and I’ve been confused if I’m trans for over a year. I’m amab and I visualize and think about my self as a girl all the time and I wish I was born a girl a lot but I’m not sure if I’m trans. I also hate my facial hair and even my chest(I’ve hated my chest area since I was like 3 and there’s literally nothing wrong with it it’s just IVE always felt uncomfortable with it) i hate having masculine shoulders and being tall. My gender identity has caused me a lot of stress and I’m still so confused and I feel horrible. I like wearing makeup but only wear it behind closed doors(the bathroom) and I’m just so confused of if I’m trans or not. A lot of sighns that trans girls say they had of being trans I have and I’m just confuzzled.
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Hi Wilmen, well, there's no trans 'test' out there. But just that fact that you've written this: And this: And this: And this: Suggests to me at least, that you probably are trans. Cis men don't think things like that. End of. How do you see your future, Wilmen? If you had to spend the rest of your life as a man how would you feel? For me that was the clincher. I realised that I simply couldn't do it, I couldn't deny the person that I truly am any more. Good luck! Beth x
I think @chicodero summed it up nicely in her breakdown of your comments. If I may ask... is it necessary that you definitively label yourself as being trans - at least for now ? I understand how finding a specific identity can be psychologically reassuring and socially empowering. (And necessary if you need medical treatment.) But it can also cause stress, if you're constantly comparing yourself to a standard that you're not comfortable with or can't properly define. Why not continue to explore what it means to you, to be a girl, or a woman, or simply female (or none of these) ? And meanwhile, give yourself time to learn more about the different kinds of transgender styles and mentalities - surely it's somewhat different for everyone ?
I agree with what's said above. I couldn't imagine myself to keep living in a female body either. Just like @chicodeoro Of course there are people who simply like dressing up as opposite gender and that's okay too. There is no hurry to trying to find out. Take baby steps and experiment, with styles and such, but also keep in mind that gender identity and expression are different. What made me realize beside being comfortable with wearing more masculine clothes was that I became euphoric, when I imagined myself living fully as a male. This also meant that I dislike my body parts, that show me as a woman to others. I feel happy too, if I get called a guy and so on. Every experience is different, some may not want to transition at all, but are still very valid and that's okay too. They just transition socially. Euphoria and dysphoria aren't requirements either. The only thing that matters that you feel like something don't match up. There are many labels out there, but the most important are your own feelings about what feels like you. You will figure it out over time. Though based off everything you said, then I think there is a chance you are one. Try and accept this feeling and see where it leads you, experiment and do research.
You sound trans to me in the most traditional of ways. Agreed with the others, definitely do a little more exploring. This exploration part is much of what being trans is.
