I'm 17 and a week ago I asked someone to be my girlfriend. I struggled with my feelings towards her, I wasn't sure if I liked her because of whose is or because I wanted a girlfriend. I really like how she makes me feel, I love when she laughs at something funny I said. I can always be myself when I'm talking to her and I don't have to think about what I'm saying too much because sometimes I get very insecure and end up over-thinking what I should say and what not. She's my first girlfriend though and I haven't really wrapped my head around the fact that I have a girlfriend and I am someone's girlfriend. It's so official! What doesn't help is that she lives like 5 hours away from me. We met through internet and have met in person after that but we weren't together back then. Maybe I'm just confused because I've never really had to act like a girlfriend and the first time I do, she's not even there for me to hug or kiss or touch in any way. Also I don't know how to girlfriend. I don't know how to do any of that. I've never even kissed anybody and I'm scared I'll be bad. There are a lot of things that are going to make our relationship harder, like the distance, money, mental health problems, families being awkward or disrespectful or something but I really really really want to make this work. I'm pretty terrified and it makes me think things like "what if we don't work out how long do I have to be someone's girlfriend and then break up so it's not just embarrassing and childish" and god I've been kinda' freaking out about this for a week. I'm sorry none of this probably makes any sense and it's horribly un-organized and just me rambling and I'm sorry I think I just need some words of encouragement and possibly some advice if someone has experienced any part of this (like the distance thing or the freaking out or...)?