Many years ago, I fell deeply in love with someone, and the resulting fallout from that left me a complete mess. Apart from my best friend of 12 years who helped me through everything that happened, I am unable to really let myself trust anyone, including my own family. I want to be able to care about people in my personal life again. I just don't know how to move on from all the pain of failing to be accepted in that community and having to start over. I lost more than a relationship when things went wrong, and now I have this constant fear of losing whatever support network I have grown since then. How do I open up my heart once again after losing so much? It's been at least 5 years, and I am unable to let it go.