My close friends know (and of course, the internet) but a lot of the time it's sort of "I neither confirm or deny" situation. For instance, if someone asked me "Hey, do you have any male celebrity crushes?" then I'd probably just say "No" rather than add "Oh, I'm gay". I usually stay quiet whenever crushes are discussed. People don't usually ask me anyway. I'm part of an LGBT society, heck I even made one online once (however, barely anyone posts in it). So it's kind of an open secret. Most people don't know that about me though. I'm usually either assumed to be uninterested in dating, or currently dating whichever male friend I happen to be hanging out with when people see me. One time I was asked by someone if I was interested in a male friend of mine, and I wanted to come out but then I lost my ability to do it as a bad memory of homophobic bullying made me stop. Instead, I just said he wasn't my type. Which is true. I talk to my friends about it openly, I even plan to go to a belated pride event later on in the week. But I don't feel fully out. I don't go around saying I'm straight or pretending to be, but I let people assume. Admittedly, when I watch gay YouTubers I feel slightly jealous. Since they just seem so...confident. They have quite a significant amount of non-straight friends, and are connected to the community. Maybe they even have a "glow up" where they come out, have a bunch of support (and some haters), find a new style and seem so sure of themselves. Comfortable. Not out of place. I'm out to my parents but it doesn't feel like it. Nothing changed. We're not any closer because of it. Now instead of "I bet you have a secret boyfriend!" it's just silence instead. Which is...OK I guess. Still, there's weird situations where my mum will say something like "*insert name here* said something bad about gays, but I don't think that's right because I know some decent gays like *insert name here*". Um, I should hope you do. They just kind of talk about LGBT stuff like no one at the table is, you know? But I feel awkward about pointing that out so I don't and just sit in silence feeling like I never came out. I even feel weird about mentioning the fact I'm planning to go to a Pride event, even though I'm out so it's not exactly that shocking, is it? Besides, straight people go to Pride. I'm not sure why it feels so odd talking about that stuff. Weirdly, I almost feel like I'm breaking some kind of rule, except I'm not.