Once I noticed a sexual attraction to guys it was a complete shock to mex and even after a couple of same sex encounters I still felt in denial. It took me a good couple of years to realise I wasn't totally straight but about 5 years to realise I was bisexual. It's taken almost another 10 years to accept myself as bi-gay. I feel like I'm in a relatively happy place now. The only way it could be better is if everyone knew and no one gave a shit either way. Unfortunately, in the world we live in, with various degrees of homophobia indoctrinated into people from their family, peers, the media and society in general, full acceptance by everyone just isn't going to happen. So I'm still largely in the closet...but most importantly, I'm out to myself, and that's a big thing as it means that I now know who and what I am and I do not have to fear it or have sleepless nights about it anymore...validate it and move on in life is the best way for me.