This may seem like a weird question, and a month and a half ago it would have to me too. But I met this woman.....I'll spare all the details but suffice to say, I'm in a happy lesbian relationship, and i would have never thought that could be possible at the beginning of 2019. But I find myself very reluctant to say romantic things or revealing things. Which is not at all like me. I'm usually quite the open book, with a TV show to match. Anyone can look at me and tell what I'm feeling. And I grew up in a family that expressed affection, and in my marriage and with my children I expressed affection, so what's holding me back? It's not her. I've examined my feelings and yes, I am emotionally and sexually attracted to her. There is a strong chemistry. She is being very emotionally open with me, so it's not like I'm afraid because I would be the only one putting myself out there. And I've put myself out there, too, but it feels unnatural. Not because of the words, but because of the moment....I can't explain it. Part of me wonders if I was just so hurt by the collapse of my marriage, necessary though it may have been, to feel safe being vulnerable. I never had any clue my ex would leave me until long after he actually did. And I promised myself I would never need someone that much again, never be so dependent on someone for my happiness. Even as I'm realizing the marriage needed to end, I still feel that betrayal. Would this make sense? Can you be gay and hurt by your straight spouse leaving you for unrelated reasons?