Long story short I outed myself a little over three years ago and had to go back in the closet due to my circumstances. I hate being in the closet, but for now it's where I have to stay. I miss having short hair and being called my preferred name and pronouns. I'm often dysphoric and can't seem to find a solution to even try in my situation. Trying to hang out with the three friends who know and support me is off the table- and I miss them terribly.