How do I get over my feelings?

I’m not even sure how to put this story into words. But I’ll try. So I’m a closeted not straight guy. (I use not straight because I feel it’s a much better description of me than gay or straight) I’ve fooled around with both sexes but I’m pretty sure I prefer guys more. 99% of all the porn I watch is gay. Anyways, I have this guy friend, who we can call V. I like him. I’ve only recently been able to admit that but I think I’ve liked him for a long time. He’s known me as a straight guy and I’ve known him to be straight as well. Sometime last year, a gay mutual friend of ours (who we can call K) told me, after a few drinks, that V had fooled around with him and that V confided in him that he wasn’t exactly straight. I wasn’t entirely sure if K was lying or not but I couldn’t ask V about it without breaking K’s trust. So I let it go, although I hoped it was true in a way because I wanted to seduce V.
Anyways, I have another very good female friend of mine who we can call C. Me and C became really good friends over the past year. I can say we were sort of each other's best friends to an extent. But I sort of liked her. It wasn’t the same physical attraction I get for guys but it wasn’t platonic either. There’s no deep desire to have sex with her but there is a strong desire to at least kiss or date her. I never told her any of this of course and after a while I convinced myself I didn’t feel that way. Well V latter informed me that he was into C.

So it all started on a university bus ride to a sporting competition. V and C were both there. I got extremely drunk ( like blacked out) and said some mean things to people on the bus including C. Made some insulting comments about her ex. Basically not my proudest moment. I still can’t get over the embarrassment. Then I technically came out, but luckily only V, C and a third person heard this. And I alluded to the fact that I knew about V and his sexuality. Luckily only he heard that part. The next day, I didn’t remember any of it. Well V proceeded to fill me in on what I had said. I apologized to the relevant parties. When it came to the topic of sexuality, V opened up to me that he is in fact bisexual. This led to us opening up to each other about our sexuality. At the same time though V and C were sort of getting serious. On the bus ride back, friend A ended up giving me a hand job and we sort of just connected. Then we fooled around on to more occasions, made out, I gave him a BJ and he fingered me. I even asked him to fuck me, which he refused. He was afraid it would make things awkward, especially considering him and C were getting pretty serious. And it would’ve been my first time as a bottom, I had only ever topped at the time. I tried to convince him that things wouldn’t get awkward, the truth is I liked him but didn’t want him to know that for fear that he wouldn’t sleep with me if he knew.

C and I continued to hang out and I admitted to her, in trying to apologize to her for insulting her on the bus, that I liked V. Of course I never made mention of V’s sexuality or what we had done but she knew that I liked him. On another drunken night, I confessed to C that at one point I had feelings for her. C’s other female friend really likes V and was sort of guilt tripping C into leaving V. Both of them are my friends and at some point I somehow got in the middle of their issues and I might have said something to C (while drunk) that pissed her off. Since then, we haven’t exactly been friends like before.

Recently, I’ve felt as though V has been actually avoiding me. At least to some extent in that we haven’t been alone together since we fooled around. Before the whole fooling around stuff there were times we’d go out drinking together but that hasn’t happened as of late. I’ve also found myself embarrassingly being jealous of both of them. I’m jealous of her for being with him but I’m also jealous of him for being with her. Although, I don’t really want to sleep with her, it’s all really confusing. I slept with another guy hoping maybe that would help but it only made me feel worse. And I don’t feel like sleeping with guys will solve it actually. At least not at the moment. I have another female friend who I regularly flirt with, we’ve fooled around as well. I want to sleep with her and maybe even date her to try get over my jealousy over V and C’s relationship. I need advice on:

1. How to stop being jealous of their relationship?
2. How do I mend my friendship with C?
3. Am I a bad person for still liking V while he's in a relationship with C?

I also feel like I should let V know exactly how I feel, maybe that way I can close of this chapter. Thing is, I’m a little embarrassed at the way I feel but I really can’t help it.
From conversations with V, I don’t think he’s as bisexual as he claims. I think he’s physically more attracted to guys.
Any thoughts?

PS: I have probably never crushed on a girl in quite the way that I do C. But I'm also sure V is my first male crush.