I've loved her since 2017, and we both have had periods of detachment as well as hatred against one another. We were close friends and then she pushed me away when she got a new boyfriend while she kept everyone else close to her. I was with somebody else when she and I were friends, but she would overstep her boundaries and flirted with me pretty hard despite her being adamant about being a straight woman. Last time I spoke to her was 2 to 3 months ago and I wrote her a letter almost begging her to leave me alone. She never respects that request so I had to go no contact. I don't think I love her anymore but I do still have a strong sexual attraction towards her even though I have not spoken or seen her for months now. I'm scared of going to the same places she'll be so I've managed to successfully avoid her. I think I'll be strong enough in a couple of more months, but.. I guess I'm just kind of angry at myself for still being so attracted and drawn towards her, even if only in my mental fantasies. How did you get over your straight crush? Do you ever really get over them at all?