I’ve struggled with my sexuality at various times in my life. When I was young I probably never acted on it because of fear of AIDS. Traditional mores were also a factor. I am really not in a position to do anything now. I am married and sadly there is not much sex (not because of an aversion to women). At times a fever for men (more attractive than myself consumes me. Porn is a huge factor. But at the heart of it I want self awareness about who I am, sexually. Never having experienced it there’s no way for me to know definitively.