Hopefully, I won't ramble too much. Many years ago, in college, I almost came out to my girlfriend. At the last second I chickened out. I was afraid of rejection, discrimination, disappointing people, AIDS, homophobia, being alone, and as an only child thought I owed my parents grandkids. Throw in being confused and unsure and a good dose of Catholic guilt I was sunk before I started. Several years later, I married and had two kids. We eventually divorced due to unrelated issues. I thought about coming out again but I convinced myself that my ex would use it against me, I would make the kids' life more difficult, and that no one would be interested in a divorced father of two in their mid-30's with dad bod. It was fear once again. I remarried again. I'm not sure of the true motivation, probably going with the flow and conforming to societal norms. Fortunately, it has gone well. I recently started therapy to deal with depression and a serious medical issue. I have come to realize that I need to deal with some stuff I don't want to. I'm exhausted from hiding part of myself, but I have no interest in running off to chase things that probably won't happen when I don't want to lose a life that I'm happy with.. Thoughts? Insights?