Welcome to EC, railey. It looks like you've created a thread asking for some advice already. I hope you get some responses to help you better understand yourself. If you don't, I'd recommend you search our website for similar threads and read those responses; many people have been in your same shoes before and asked the exact same questions. If you need anything, please feel free to let me or another staff member know. See you around!
Welcome to Empty Closets! You have come to the right place to ask for and receive support. I hope you are finding the community to be useful and are getting the support you are looking for.