My name is Johnnie. I'm kind of trying to figure out who I am. I sometimes feel like I was meant to be a man (especially when I examine my body in a mirror), other times I'm just tired of being judged by standards I could never possibly meet. I hope I can find some answers here, among people who are experiencing (or who have experienced) the same problems I am.
Johnnie2x4....Hello and welcome to empty closets! I think that you will find some answers here...and maybe some questions too... CHeck out the forum titled "Gender Identity and Expression" here on EC. There are a lot of people there who will understand your questions! .....David
Okay, so here's an update: I was looking through the Gender Identity and Expression forum when I came across this post from about 3 years ago: Autism Spectrum Disorders and Transgenderism Now, this peaked my interest, because I was diagnosed with Asperger's Syndrome when I was 10. So after going through some of the replies and doing some more research, I found out something that I had not expected: according to recent studies, a lot of transgender people (especially transgender men) have been diagnosed with Autism Spectrum Disorder. This basically blew my mind. Although I've excepted my A.S.D. a long time ago, I never expected it to have anything to do with my gender dysphoria (which I didn't start experiencing until just last year when I turned 27). And it has helped solve the problem I had when this whole thing started: whether my feelings about my gender were legitimate. When I started considering the possibility that I was born in the wrong gender, I wasn't sure if it was a legitimate fact, or if I was just disappointed and angry about the fact that I could never live up to the standards of being a woman. Now that I know that my A.S.D. and my dysphoria are connected, I feel that my feelings are legitimate: I feel I was born in the gender because I was born in the wrong gender. I was meant to be a man! Honestly, I was so excited by this that I called my sister (the only person that I've come out to) to tell her. She was both surprised and glad. And so am I. I honestly feel like I'm seeing things clearly for the first time in a long, long time. It makes me feel so much better about myself. I really don't know what else to say about this, really. I just wanted share this with other people.
!!! omg I'm so happy that you were able to figure out who you are! ovob Also henlo I'm Carmen/Kit and I hope you have a good time here! :3
