Hello! I'm back with another thread, I gave so many feelings right now. I had sex a few hours ago, I met a guy on an app (I KNOW), at first I just wanted to have mutual masturbation as this is one of the lowest risk activities from getting STIS, etc. but once I was with this guy, I let my self go and did oral to him and he did a bit for me and then he asked if we could do anal, I said yes but only with a condom. So we had anal with a condom but no lube other than saliva (I KNOW). He was very careful and understanding about pain and stuff so we did it slow. Nothing happened to the condom and I asked him to pull out before cumming and so he did. Right after we both finished, all the thoughts started coming... 1. I invented a name, profession etc cause i'm in the closet but at the end he told me I looked like one of his friends... He gave me his real name so I discovered he knows my openly gay brother and many people I know from the city I live in. So I panicked about being recognized, if I see him again somewhere etc. (If you saw my other thread about an app accidentally outing myself... well here I am again) 2. My worries about the STIs are kinda low this time, since we used a condom, there wasn't any breakage and he didn't cum inside me, obviously I'll have to get tested after the time frame to be sure about it. 3. I feel bad about having casual sex, I don't know how other people do it, I have not enjoyed most of the sex I had, I think with just two people I enjoyed the most where the ones I had some kind of connection (My exgirlfriend, 1 of the guys I had sex repeatedly) 4. I feel horrible because I have internal homophobia, I'm not that way with anybody else but myself, I'm not able to accept me, I don't know if I'm fooling myself about being bisexual or what is wrong with me, why can't I come to terms with what I like or don't like. I feel like I want to come out but at the same time I don't because I feel I will be opening the door to soooo many people to judge me as hard as I already judge myself. Please help me.