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Goodbye To Everyone & Myself

Discussion in 'General Support and Advice' started by DeLuna, Mar 26, 2014.

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  1. DeLuna

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    I decided to just kill myself inside and to just simply ignore my true self for my whole life..........


    Bye everyone, I got to kill the little girl that I am for my parents.....I may be sad and depressed for my whole life but whatever makes my mom happy I guess
     
    #1 DeLuna, Mar 26, 2014
  2. Amerigo

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    gurl, stop right there. talk it out, come on, closing yourself off is not something you really want to do, you know that, and it's not something you have to do, for the sake of your parents. you've made the first step by posting this thread, we're on your side.
     
    #2 Amerigo, Mar 26, 2014
  3. CharlsOn

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    What are you trying to do??? Either you want to kill yourself or just the little girl your parents are believing in. I hope the second one!!!!
     
    #3 CharlsOn, Mar 26, 2014
  4. Chess

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    Please don't. We love you.
     
    #4 Chess, Mar 26, 2014
  5. CharlsOn

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    You're a great person!!! Would miss you here!:slight_smile:
     
    #5 CharlsOn, Mar 26, 2014
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    Hope you find the strength to be you one day :slight_smile:
     
    #6 Richie., Mar 26, 2014
  7. Simple Thoughts

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    Don't do that :frowning2:

    It's not good to kill the person you are. It'll only cause you more pain.
     
    #7 Simple Thoughts, Mar 26, 2014
  8. aspie musician

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    I love u.We can get through this together.I will try if u will.I had a similar thought today.But managed to get through the day.
     
    #8 aspie musician, Mar 26, 2014
  9. alex3191

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    Listen, i know from experience that this doesn't work i tried for years to ignore and just get on with it for everyone elses sake but eventually my depression from ignoring myself got so bad that it effected the people around me anyway. You need to live your life for you and no one else. It may take time but eventually your mother will realize its better to have you as you instead of a shell of yourself trying to be something you are not or worse dead. So please don't give up on yourself we are all here for you
     
    #9 alex3191, Mar 26, 2014
  10. TossAWatermelon

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    Come on you're being a good daughter: your parents taught you to be honest right?
     
    #10 TossAWatermelon, Mar 26, 2014
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    DeLuna, you don't deserve that.. Alright? You don't deserve to shut yourself out, you deserve to be happy and free. I know it's not easy (it's hard as hell) to hold on, but you just have to.. Know that things get better, and that everything will eventually fall into place. It's kind of hypocritical for me to say that because I too frequently feel like hiding myself from the world. This feeling you have, though, is not forever. This is clearly a very difficult, painful chapter of your life, but it's not the end.

    Post on my wall anytime, I want you to reach out to me if you need to. You shouldn't have to do this alone, and I'm not going to let you. Just pace yourself, however hard that may be, and know that I care about your well being.. I don't care how far our distance is or how sappy I sound, I'm here for you. Just hold on. (*hug*)
     
    #11 violently happy, Mar 26, 2014
  12. aspie musician

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    This does not last all the time...I myself am going through a rough patch....but managed to make some progress again...Post to my wall....I promise....and I mean PROMISE that I will be here for you.As a friend.I am sending you a request.Is that okay?No need to say anything just accept it.Just give me some sign of life.
     
    #12 aspie musician, Mar 26, 2014
  13. DeLuna

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    ..Drowning in my own head, I feel like a little bug..I don't like that I bother people with my problems.....I feel so small
     
    #13 DeLuna, Mar 26, 2014
  14. aspie musician

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    I am not giving up on you.I have been here before.If I can get through this,then so can you.Really.It may not seem that way right now...I have been in some pretty scary places in my life...but I managed to keep on fighting...and I will continue doing that.You can do this!You are much stronger than you think you are!
     
    #14 aspie musician, Mar 26, 2014
  15. DeLuna

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    is it worth it if I cause my parents pain
     
    #15 DeLuna, Mar 26, 2014
  16. CharlsOn

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    I also don't like it to bother other people with my problems but most of them are glad I do. So don't hesitate. There's always a solution even if it does not seem so at first!
     
    #16 CharlsOn, Mar 26, 2014
  17. aspie musician

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    I feel insignificant often...but I am still here...I have felt the same way...trust me on this...Here if you want me...
     
    #17 aspie musician, Mar 26, 2014
  18. CharlsOn

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    Go you own way. If they don't like you or whatever it's not your problem. Sometimes you have to distance yourself from the expectations of other people. Sounds harsh but sometimes it's the best way.
     
    #18 CharlsOn, Mar 26, 2014
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    I have a better question.

    Are your parents worth the pain they are putting you through?
     
    #19 BookDragon, Mar 26, 2014
  20. aspie musician

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    I cause pain as well...I feel like a screw up everything for everyone around me often...as if people would be better off if I was not there.The fight is worth it though...it may not seem that way right now...But its worth it.
     
    #20 aspie musician, Mar 26, 2014
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