Goals: I want to be fully out by the end of this summer. This is weird, I know I can just press a 'nuke' button on facebook and via email announcing that I am gay, but I feel I need to do this incrementally and symbolically. I want to live a more authentic gay lifestyle: that means being a little bit for feminine and stopping some of my lingering hetero habits. I want to do thinks where I am meeting more LGBT people and less hetero activities. So if I go on vacation it will be in a place popular with gays. I want to date regularly until I find a boyfriend. Dreams I want to wake up snuggling with my boyfriend. I want to be there when my boyfriend comes home after a long day, hug him, look into his eyes and say "I love you". I dream about an at home 'date night' when I do something romantic and sensual for him, playing dress up or satisfying one of his fantasies, or even just looking at him "down there" and licking my lips with a sensual smile... last year at this time I was fighting being gay now I am so motivated to move forward. It's been a long journey but it feels so good to have something to move forward to. what are yours?