Life is awful. School is killing me I cannot take it. It is so stressful and it is my junior year in high school so I know it is supposed to be stressful but it is killing me. I am becoming more depressed and my anxiety is killing me. My friends suck as well so I really just hang out with like 6 people. I am not a social person ever because I have social anxiety. It just sucks. And I want to come out to the world but I don't know how. Honestly I dont really care what people think at this point I just want to be out. I think this can relieve some of my stress. I want to tell people I am just worried... I am sick of everything and just want people to know and move on. I am so over it I think I am going to do it I just need to wait for some of my friends to get back from a trip so that I can tell them (one of which I have a crush on but it doesnt matter cause she has a boyfriend) Finally, my feelings suck. They decide to like girls. Then they like straight girls. Actually its more like fall in love with girls. I want to be able to tell a girl I like her and not screw up relationships. Plus I don't want to tell my friends who I like but I cant cause I suck and it would mess up friendships that I would die without Anyways that is my messed up life. I hate myself and just want to be lesbian, happy, and open.