Okay, so, first off, the obligatory, "I know I'm 15 and even though things change and this is a tumultuous time and even though you don't have to decide right now and yada yada yada… I've been spending too much time brooding over this issue, and I'd love if someone could help me put my kind at ease." Be sure to ignore my grammatically sketchy use of quotations. So, here's the gist of it. I'll try to keep it short since I have a habit of writing too much. Essentially, I'm torn between the labels of 'asexual/aromantic' and 'gay' (of course, coming out is it's own problem at a catholic school, but I'll cross that bridge when I get there). For as long as I can remember, relationships and even sex have seemed unappealing, I think they're far too much work. Everyone else going around with their boyfriends and girlfriends kissing and 'doing it' left and right, and I'm too lazy to even get off my potato ass and decide *if* I'm even going to hit on someone. So, yeah. I've started to think I may be asexual and/or aromantic, since I've no sexual or romantic attraction to anyone I've ever formally met. On the other hand, the male body is extremely aesthetically pleasing (wow, that's a strange thing to write), and I have found myself attracted to various male celebrities/random strangers at the park. Before I get asked this question, yes, I do masturbate on occasion, though I am reluctant to disclose that information in person. Half of the reason why is to avoid the awkwardness of wet dreams, and the other half of the reason is because Ryan Gosling is just too damn attractive. And, on another tangent, I've never been sexually attracted to women, nor do I find the female body aesthetically pleasing, especially after I was told at a young age that boobs are just flesh balloons that occasionally house milk. I'd like to think my problem boils down to this: am I asexual, or are high school boys just ugly and not worthy of the almighty me in all my nerdy glory? Obviously, I'm young, and obviously, I likely won't find the answer to my questions soon, but I really wish someone would help me put my mind st ease… Hey look, another tangent! Everyone at my all boys Catholic high school seems convinced I'm gay. It's some combination of the fact that I have a 'gay' voice, whatever that means, that I have highlights in my hair, and that I wear skinny jeans from time to time (and forget the extremely strict dress code exists). Since I'm writing this thread, I might as well throw this question in here as well: once I'm confident of my sexual identity, is it worth even coming out in an environment as toxic as the one I have to spend my days in? The day after Trump was elected, Latino kids were told to go back to Mexico, Trump stickers were slapped on their backs, and white kids promised to adopt them. Also, my friend (who will be a senior) came out as gay his sophomore year and was harassed so much for the entirety of that year that his GPA fell from a 3.7 to a 1.5. I'll likely be subjected to these issues if I come out in high school. Is it even worth it? Thanks for all your help in advance! P.S.: Sorry for all the only semi-related tangents, I find it very difficult to focus on only one single thing, especially when given no parameters on what to write. I'm sure this thread was difficult to follow.