Hi Guys, so I hate Shopping honestly I despise it, nothing ever fits right. Im not plus sized but i'm a bit chubby and i'm trying to lose weight and have so far been unsuccessful, in fact I'v put on weight because of the anti-depressants i'm on and I can't function without them so I can't not take them. I have no issue with pants because I'm 5'9 but tops are a whole different story. My lower hips and from my pelvis area down is like straight down and I have no butt at all I'm so flat, but the area between my waist and hips is a whole other story all the fat on my body just goes there and it looks like i have a constant muffin top and love handles the whole way round kind of like a tire I'm not fat but shirts constantly cling to this are I can't ever wear button up shirts they kind of just get supper tight at the bottom and I have to leave 2 buttons undone and if I get shirts that fit that area they are 3 sizes to big for the rest of me so I look like I'm even fatter & can't dress myself. T-shirts do the same I need to get clothes but I can't because I have very low self esteem and I can't stand clothes shopping because it makes me hate myself. I have cried every time I have gone clothes shopping for the last 3 years. I went shopping with my friends the other day and I literally just sobbed in the change room & made them take me home. I don't know how to deal with the self loathing that centres around shopping, I need new clothes I haven't bought any in 3 years, Iv just given up honestly and I just hate my body. How can I buy clothes that actually fit me all I wear are oversized hoodies that I drown in.