Hi all, I've finally decided to join. The main reason for joining is that I've been struggling with my sexuality for years (since the age of 7). I'm currently single and have had very few girlfriends. My main problem is that I can get addicted to gay chatrooms. I have never taken things further than chatting but I feel extremely guilty for my behaviour. I have actually been extremely depressed since childhood because of this problem. At times, suicidal. I know people here will be offended, but I actually disagree with homosexuality. If there was a cure for what I have, I would take it in a heartbeat. I'm sorry if I offend anyone with my views. I guess I don't really know what I'm doing with my life. My family are concerned about why I'm still not married. Although my struggle with my sexuality isn't the only reason. I don't think there is a legitimate solution to my problem. I think I will end up dying with this unresolved struggle. The only problem is that I still have another 40 plus years to get through in life. Sometimes I wonder why I even exist in the first place. I guess some of us are dealt with a bad hand, even if we should consider ourselves relatively lucky.