Finding feminine males, both real and fictional, sexually attractive

I am short on time so I won’t be able to post with a lot of depth but I can later and would like some responses.

Even though I am not really part of the LGBT culture, I did join this forum because I was bullied at school due to being shy and socially awkward due to having Aspergers and sometimes even dubbed homophobic slurs so I felt like this community would be accepting (and it has). However, for a good while now, I have been finding males who are feminine in appearance, both real and fictional, sexually attractive. I will say that it’s more so the latter because of the escapism fantasy entails, though.

However, just like with my struggles in getting a girlfriend, I don’t think I’ll be able to meet a feminine male for both platonic or romantic or sexual relations. There is no ‘real’ LGBT community where I live, my family is homophobic for the most part, COVID has made my social struggles even harder, and I still live with my mother which is already a red flag in regards to having a relationship with a woman for me.

 

Hi and thank you, DecentOne. I was worried this thread would be considered off putting.


I actually can drive to Austin but I haven’t been there since maybe March. My state had a stay at home order so I wouldn’t have been able to do the things I enjoy over there but even after that lifted, I didn’t go because the depression I suffer from reached a deeper low than it ever has before so my motivation was ruined and I’ve gotten to where spending long periods of time alone really makes me fall into despair (which is odd considering how I was very introverted before COVID hit).


I’ve never had sex with a male before but I’ve masturbated to gay porn as well as hentai (anime/manga porn if you don’t know what that is) and I’ve had cybersex with males. The thing is that the males tend to have feminine traits like long hair, soft features, shapely butts, and womanly voices. The men I’ve sexted also say they are “femboys” or “traps”.

 

I thought I was finally going to get a date with a woman but her conversation with me disappeared and her profile is gone from the dating site. I don’t see how trying to find a feminine male online would be any different. Aspergers has really undone me.

 

I feel very discouraged, especially since I am 32 and I have family members who I’ve known since they were babies who are either now engaged or married while I can’t even get a coffee date but a part of me still wants things to change in my life. I at least want a long term relationship and some sexual fantasies fulfilled before I die.

 

I can’t stop thinking about the things I am missing out on.