I’ve come to accept over the last few weeks/months that due to my controlling family I will never be able to come out. I will never be able to have a relationship, I will never be able to have friends. I’ve no financial independence, and the likelihood is I never will. I’ve tried to work out a way I can change things, but there simply isn’t one. No one on this forum or any other has the answer. Yet I can’t stop thinking of what could be or what could’ve been. I feel there’s something wrong with me, as how can I be upset about not having what I’ve never had? Being gay has been the worst thing possible for me. I genuinely feel like I’ve been cursed.