Well I'm finally back on here. I realized how much this website has helped me in the past by looking at the date I joined which was in 2015. That year I would say would be the emotional rock bottom of my life so far. Since then a couple of changes have been made. I sought out professional help for my mental issues and I also came out to several people including my parents. They took it better than I expected, but then again I expected the worst. It feels awkward to talk to the about normal stuff in my life like crushes and why I'm really scared to go to church. I think sometimes my mom hints at me being gay if that makes sense. She told me about a movie she watched and how I would like how one girls relationship turned out. I think everyone is too afraid to bring up my sexuality and discuss it. I sometimes feel very disconnected from my family because I'm not fully being myself around them. Now I'm officially moved into a new house with some extended family members and I'm extremely anxious. It isn't just about my sexuality though... I feel like if I make one wrong move I'm gonna be scolded. I know I'm an adult now but I'm just anxious and a bit too isolated. I wanted to feel a real human connection again like I have with my best friend who has probably forgotten about me by now since he's been gone and will stay gone at basic training for the army. Any Suggestions?
