Just feeling low this week...have come a long ways, separated from my husband, moved out with my daughter, told a few friends that I'm gay...have gone through the stage of "yippee I'm gay!" to now feeling depressed. Realized this yesterday when I had a conversation with a neighbour mom, she was telling me about her marriage (to a man), and I realized that I'll never be in that club again- that straight couples group- I realized that I bent my life around living that life- getting married, having a child etc, feeling like I was doing the "right" thing- I cared so much about what people thought of me. I only ever wanted to be "normal" and I closeted myself my whole life in order to not be "different". I'm feeling sad for not being able to live that life (well, I COULD, BUT......) and yesterday my daughter said to me "I don't want you to be gay." And I told her you don't get to choose (believe me!!!) but she told me "Yes you can, you can choose to kiss a boy or a girl." But she's 7, so what does she know- except that even at this age she knows it's "bad" to be different. Really feeling unhappy today. Just wanted to vent. Thanks for reading!