Hello! I am new here. I’m feeling lost and alone. When I was a young teenager (13-18), I was proudly out as bisexual. I had girlfriends. I was president of the gay straight alliance. Then I moved away and entered college. I met a man, got married, had babies, life goes on. However, as life went on, I found my sled back in the closet. We moved to a place where I initially knew nobody. Sexuality became completely irrelevant as I navigated being a wife in a hetero relationship with children. There was never a reason to mention it. I am now 33 years old, so it’s been literally half of my life time since I’ve become re-closeted. Recently I came out to two of my friends who are lesbian. It felt safe and it felt good but it left me longing for more. However, one friend lives far away. The other lived close but she moved. Each time I told someone I felt relief. I’m not sure why I have this nagging sense to become more involved with my sexuality. It’s not like I can change partners or anything, but I just feel like a piece of me has been hidden for so long now that it’s making life so difficult. I feel like if I go down a journey of coming out again, nobody will understand why I’m doing it and everyone will assume I’m set to leave my husband which I am not. I don’t know what I hope to gain but I figured this is as good a place as any to just write down my thoughts.