It all fell apart today. It's hard when your girlfriend tells you she won't now be spending Christmas with you and your family (as it was last year, with your kids and your ex-husband) and also you that she feels unwanted and it's all on your terms. Having earlier said she was choosing not to come on Christmas Eve, because it was easier for her with pet care responsibilities, she turns around and says she was not invited and was excluded. It's not true that she has not been welcomed in my home and there are presents I chose for her now sitting there in a cupboard unwrapped. I have also been accused of just using her for sex today because I initiated sex and she went along with it, but says her PTSD is too bad to receive pleasure and this leaves me feeling really down as I have only ever been a gentle sexual partner and my greatest pleasure is to be able to give pleasure. This isn't very well expressed. But I just feel sad and crap and needed to share it.