Searching, I totally understand as this is exactly how I felt when I once and for all said I didn’t find women sexually attractive and in reality found their sexual organs repulsive. It was a startling relief to finally admit it to myself. I was never comfortable naked with women, not a problem with men. Kissing and making out just seemed perfunctory, just something I had to do. When I was finally free of it, the sense of freedom was intense. With a man everything comes ease.