Now, dont get me wrong, i absolutely love the thought of going on hormones, and now that my mom has said we are going to the doctor soonish to "start the journey" it excites me but also frightens me a bit. Some aspects of it i love, one of the biggest problems for me is my voice. Even though i have known i was transgender for half of my life, i am still having second thoughts like "what if you change your mind?" "this is a decision you are making for the rest of your life" "you cant go back" "what if you wont like your future self?" i have no idea where these are coming from, and im sort of worried about it. i know hormones would relieve a lot my dysphoria i have to deal with each and every single day, and even though i struggle, i am still having second thoughts and a bit of anxiety. did anyone else feel this way? and in turn, did going on hormones really make things better? any advice you can give is appreciated.