Lately I have noticed me being trans seems to be...less there? Not saying that it is gone, just that it no longer consumes my waking thoughts like it use to when I first realized I was trans. This sometimes had me thinking things like "Am I even trans?" But then when I think back on my past; saying I would grow to be a boy when I was 3, the massive amounts of dysphoria i felt from the ages of 13-18, and how I currently can not imagine a life where I remain female in body..yeah then I know I am trans It gets all rather confusing. I hardly even feel dysphoria these days which makes it all the more confusing. Yeah, I refuse to leave the house if I don't have a binder/sports bra on, and I hate having to say I am female on job applications when everyone I know in my new homes calls me by male name and pronouns, but at the same time none of that really bothers me as much as it use to. So I start wondering if I am less trans, or maybe I am just getting use to everything and allowing worries like getting a job and starting to school to take up most of my time instead of being trans.
I don't think every trans person has their transness at the front of their concerns 24/7. Some suppress it for years, so unless you literally go the rest of your life identifying with your assigned gender with no discomfort, I wouldn't rule out being trans. I guess it's similar for the majority of cis people most of the time, who take things for granted?
As time goes on, the shock of it seems to lessen. It's almost like you get used to the feelings that once hurt before. Like @gravechild said, it is not something that is all consuming at all times. Sometimes the feelings are stronger, and other times they are not.
Think of how you felt before you figured out that you were trans. The dysphoria was there in the background but not impossible to cope with. Learning that you were trans came with an increase in dysphoria to levels that forced you to make some changes in your life to relieve some of the dysphoria. However, over time the dysphoria returns back to normal but the changes that you made continue to help reduce dysphoria, so the level of dysphoria is actually much lower than what it was before you realized you were trans. It reminds me a bit of how people act after taking some types of medications for a long period of time, especially those that have to do with metal problems. If the medication works and the person feels better, they will start doubting needing the medication because they feel fine. However, when they stop taking the medication things tend to go back to what they were and they remember why they needed the medication in tbe first place.
I agree with the others and think it's not uncommon to get used to dysphoria in some sense or learn how to cope with it. I'd say it's a good thing to not have to worry about your gender every hour of every day. I personally felt way more social dysphoria than body dysphoria, so once I had my name and gender marker changed and people started addressing me correctly I frequently forgot that I'm trans. Nothing wrong with that.
Maybe due to social transition you feel more like a normal dude which might ease dysphoria. Got the same with my personal man-up routine. Don't worry.
