Lately I have noticed me being trans seems to be...less there? Not saying that it is gone, just that it no longer consumes my waking thoughts like it use to when I first realized I was trans. This sometimes had me thinking things like "Am I even trans?" But then when I think back on my past; saying I would grow to be a boy when I was 3, the massive amounts of dysphoria i felt from the ages of 13-18, and how I currently can not imagine a life where I remain female in body..yeah then I know I am trans It gets all rather confusing. I hardly even feel dysphoria these days which makes it all the more confusing. Yeah, I refuse to leave the house if I don't have a binder/sports bra on, and I hate having to say I am female on job applications when everyone I know in my new homes calls me by male name and pronouns, but at the same time none of that really bothers me as much as it use to. So I start wondering if I am less trans, or maybe I am just getting use to everything and allowing worries like getting a job and starting to school to take up most of my time instead of being trans.