Does the emptiness and loneliness ever go away?

I don't feel like I have even 1 person who really understands what I am going through or cares to. I have people who are trying but they're doing a bad job at it, misgendering me, not understanding that I'm still very much still on that suicidal brink. It just feels like the tension reloads and builds up again and again. I'll be ok for a few months but then it returns and I'm sad and lonely and bitter even though I have friends. I don't have one really good friend or a lover to confide the entire truth in.