It has been while since I wrote an update. I'm 52, married to a woman, and have two adult kids. My wife has been treating me badly for close to 25 year of marriage. I started opening up to her about her behavior and how it hurts but she never listened. In December 2016, we separated, we lived under the same roof, but different rooms. Barely talked and never communicated. I was planning to file for divorce through my lawyer this January but she did it first. I tried negotiating the terms and finances of the divorce with her but she was extremely stubborn and insisted on collecting every dime and to run severe smear campaigns against me in my direct family and friend circle. I moved out of the house two weeks ago after she accused me of taking her jewelry from her jewelry box, it was like a stab in the back. She lies as easily as breathing. I was worried that she accuses me of something even more serious so I left. I live in a rental apartment studio where I can have the peace of mind and tranquility that I missed for years. But living alone takes some skills and getting used to. I am still not out to any of my family, but made a couple of gay friends through last year, one of them is close to my heart but it seems that he doesn't share the same feelings with me. And I am ok with it, it hurts, but its reality. We still talk every other week or so, he still keeps in touch and shows interest in hearing about my personal adventures at home. I don't really know why I'm writing this, but in the last few days I started feeling depressed, I try to occupy myself with work, cooking and taking care of my new home. But I am an impatient person, and I want to get over with this marriage as soon as I possibly can. My wife doesn't show that .. She asked for spousal support, although she lived in the house and paid nothing (mortgage, utilities, loans ...etc.) and I took care of everything. She is seeking revenge and is trying to get every dime from me just to break me down. I consult with my lawyer all the time and I still see my therapist on a regular basis but nothing seems helping my lump in my throat or my tight chest. I thought venting out here would help some.