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Disquieting thoughts, please help

Discussion in 'Anonymous Support and Advice' started by Anonymous, Oct 12, 2017.

  1. Anonymous

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    I was raised in a strict homophobic religion, and i have never been homophobic, because well i try to not judge, but when i realized i was gay, well.....thats another story, really tore myself up, now in this religion, if i pursue a homosexual relationship, i would be kicked out of religion and home would not be able to talk tl anyone in religion, which ive basically accepted, till now, for the first time i looked at lesbian porn pics, and i found that i really wish i had a girlfriend, but i also felt i was betraying my family, my special needs brother, my self my religion, i dont really know if i can keep going like this, i feel like somethings going to snap and im going to lose everything,!,,.........any ideas or help would be greatly appreciated
     
  2. Quantumreality

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    Hey OP,

    Only you can ever truly know your own sexuality.

    As far as exploring a homosexual relationship goes, that is also your own choice, but, of course, it is dependent on your personal situation. If such a relationship would create a threat to your personal well-being or your life, you would have to take that into consideration. From your post, it sounds like you are in a truly bad situation where a same-sex relationship would not only be unaccepted, it would be life-threatening. In that case, my best advice would be to get yourself to a country/environment that is much more accepting.

    I'm very sorry if I haven't really been helpful.:frowning2:
     
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    I was raised in a homophobic Christian home. I struggled a lot with my sexuality but have finally reached a point of being out to anyone who cares, and even my homophobic Christian parents have accepted me/my sexuality. Life couldn't be better at this point with regards to that.

    Is there a therapist you can speak to this about? I think you really need a support network, and a therapist (provided they're accepting of LGBT community) is a great start. I recently sort-of came out to my therapist. She knows I attended Pride last year, and she knew what Pride was and even knew when it was this year. I told her I didn't go this year because I didn't want to go alone and the people I went with last year, all had something else going on that day (October 7th).

    What I'm trying to get at is, it helps to have someone to talk openly to about your sexuality, and a therapist might be able to give you advice on how to go about it. I wish you all the best, and hope you find a way past all the obstacles in your life. I hope someone else can give you better advice. Hugs
     
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    Thank you, i will try to talk to a therapist. I will wor
     
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    I was raised Roman Catholic, which is not the most LGBT friendly religion. But to make matters worse, at mass and Sunday school, we were taught hate. For everything that was even slightly different. So in turn since I came out, every last blood relative I have has disowned me. But the way I look at it is, if they are that pathetic to do this, then I don't want or need them in my life.

    I don't know how close you are to your family, or how devout you are in your religion, but alienation may be something to consider. It's by far not the best choice, but sometimes it's the only one.