Hi. I'm a 16-year-old boy, and I have had sexual feelings for my friend for about two years. We have been friends for about three years now. Back then, we were best friends. We spent the summer of 2013 basically together, seeing each other almost daily, swimming etc. I'm pretty sure I hadn't these feelings for him back then. Actually, it's possible I really hadn't much sexual feelings at all, since I have delayed puberty. Then things changed somewhat. He found other friends and naturally hung out with them, also. Many of those friends are my friends too. But still, I started feelings envious. While we still trusted each other, we didn't hang out as often. I felt like he didn't invite me enough to hang out, and we had many fights about it. We still continued to be close friends, though. About a year ago, little less, I think I got depressed. I didn't hang out with my friends practically at all. I felt a strong hate towards the friend I mentioned. I now see it must have been the jealousy; he got along well with his other friends and I felt betrayed. Things stayed like this, we rarely talking, until about a month ago. I asked him if he thought we're still friends. He told me that he does, but that we're not probably very good ones since we don't talk a lot. I agreed, and we had a long chat. I somewhat admitted my jealousy and he told me that he indeed had spent more time with his other friends, ignoring me, without even realizing it. Like I said, it's been about a month and I feel like the "connection" between us is still there. However, I find myself constantly doubting my friend's intentions. I keep overanalyzing why he didn't invite me when he did his other friend etc. I hate feeling like that, but I can't really help it. Now, a few days ago, I fully "realized" these feelings for him. I had known all along about how I feel, but it felt so "wrong" so I dismissed the feelings until now. I find myself constantly thinking about him, even fantasizing about him. At the moment, I really hate the idea of being gay. The weird thing is that I don't really have sexual feelings towards other men/boys; it's just him. I'm pretty confused about all this. Now, I did tell my friend I might be gay a few days ago. He took it well, nothing unusual. However, I'm unsure about if I should tell him about my feelings and crush (if that's what I should call it). Logically, there's no point: he's straight and couldn't return my feelings. But however, I keep playing "what if"'s in my head. Again, logically it's not possible, as he's straight and I'm pretty ugly anyways, so it wouldn't be possible. Knowing him pretty well, I think he wouldn't freak out. But then again, things could be weird, even though I would probably find the closure needed to get over the crush. It's really eating me up inside, though -- I've had no appetite lately and it's hard to sleep. But of course, I want to think about my friend's feelings, too. He has supported me during depression, has forgiven me for my stupid actions etc., so I think I would burden him even more. I just keep thinking about the "better times" and feeling nostalgic, so I wouldn't want to make things worse. Oh, and sorry for yet another "fallen for my straight friend"-thread. I have read quite a lot of those, and some advise to tell the friend, some to don't. So I thought I'd ask about my situation, as every situation is obviously different.