I'm very disturbed that when I typed in lesbian and lesbianism into amazon's search bar for books, so many conversion books popped up of "recovery from lesbianism" "life after lesbianism", etc, most talking about God and Jesus and stuff. I'm so upset now- while I was expecting one or two books here and there in the mix, the majority of books were these, very few are about art or history or anything positive, the majority of them were conversion books. I'm so disgusted and angry and hurt there are women who will look at me and think or say "why do you think this is an okay lifestyle? You will go to hell" blah blah. Being a sensitive person, it gets to me, it hurts, it scares me they'll force or trick me into bad things to try to "salvage my soul for god" and that crap.