I need some insight into what i am experiencing, sometimes i genuinely cant relate to other folks on this yearning for same sex intimacy or closeness. I am completely satisified and happy with these aspects in my current relationship with my partner of the opposite sex. I need to know what i am experiencing around my partners brother. Im not sure if its that i am attracted to him or that i am nervous around him as his personality is quite loud and extraverted and i am the opposite. The feelings when he is there range from feeling no anxiety. Too heat and tingling and nervousness quite uneasy. If anyone can help with some insight. Sometimes i just look forward to the end of the day so i can hold my partner in bed and just let it be this moment and nothing else. I have thoughts that i need to know 100% and also constant conflict. So i would get a thought about being gay and then the next second i am cuddling my partner and its great also i love having sex with my partner and would be happy if i died without having sex with anyone else but her. Sorry for rambling ive posted previously. I just get caught in these loops of obsessive thoughts, they have subsided a bit with the medication i have been prescribed but still the problem persists.
