I'm new to this forum. I am a 47 year old married man with two kids. I grew up wearing women's clothes. I told my wife before we married. we also sought counseling for general marital issues where I came out and said I fantasize about sex with men. I have never been with a May although I tried several times in my early twenties. I masturbate to these fantasies and I do enjoy gay porn. I also watch hetero porn and imagine myself as the woman. I do find women sexy emotionally and physically. I satisfy my wife sexually and I enjoy it also. I look at men at the gym or work and can't imagine me being with them. I do not find them attractive. I have been turned on by seeing a naked man before. I love dick. How can I be so turned on by the thought of being with a man but not look at them and find them gorgeous. My wife's friend is always commenting on how hot guys are. I try to feel that way but it doesn't happen. I would accept I'm gay if I looked at men and wanted to go down on them all the time but I almost never feel that way unless I'm watching porn or fantasizing. What do I do?