Hey everyone. 'm a bit confused about my sexuality right now. Ever since I knew what a lesbian was, I thought I was a lesbian. I remember when I was like 6, a show was on TV and two women were kissing and my aunt said something like "some girls like girls and some boys like boys and that's okay" and I said "I like girls". But here's the thing, I always fancied boys in school. But it was more like, because they had nice hair and I wanted hair like that. When I was a teen, I always liked boys who looked like girls and acted like girls, the fact that they were like girls made me like them but as soon as they became older and masculine, all of my attraction to them faded. Here's where I'm SO confused. I DO NOT WANT TO HAVE SEX WITH MEN OR HAVE A RELATIONSHIP WITH A MAN WHAT SO EVER. But for some reason I have "crushes" on male celebrities who are feminine, like Justin Bieber and The Dolan Twins, who are pretty boys but I think that it's more I would like to look like them and get the attention from girls that they get. But why do I find them handsome when I don't like men? and whenever I watch straight porn, the thought of having a dick and fucking a girl turns me on. But I think that's because I like to be the "top" sexually. It's making me nervous that I'm trans? I don't look up to women but I idolize men and dykes. For example, Elvis Presley, Ruby Rose, Justin Bieber, Marlon Brando, Dolan Twins. I think because I want to be like them, kind of like girls would look up to Kim Kardashian? I never ever have crushes or look at men in real life, only women. In fact, I'm practically in love with my best friend right now. If it helps, I'm a 25 year old woman. Sorry this is long.
Youre like so many gay men including myself, I idolize women and I love andro girls, but Im a stone cold queer. Its an aesthetic attraction rather that a boy parts / girl parts one and that's okay. Youre fine they arent going to pull your lesbo card, relax. P.S. girls who look up to Kim Kardashian take way too many wooden nickels if you ask me.
Hey there, I relate a lot to what you've described here, and even now worry about that from time to time (but I'm a worrier by nature anyway). And in my case, pondering about this for too long leaves me in quite a bad mental condition, to be honest; it's like this thinking loop just nags there and won't let me relax. Being an artist, I am quite a visual person, and nearly anyone/anything aesthetically pleasing can attract my attention in terms that I may stare at them for some time. But when I try to make myself categorize this in "sexual attraction", I get very uncomfortable and get a feeling that I am forcing myself to do that.
Thank you. I am so depressed because of this. What’s getting to me more is, because I have masculine features, a lot of straight women find me attractive but would not date me because I’m a girl. My best friend has a crush on me also, but always talks about how much she loves penis and this has made me very depressed
Sorry to hear that; I get what you mean. My close friend used to say that she would date me if I were a guy :/ Well, what can you do, everyone has their own preferences
It’s very scary because I feel like lesbians don’t like me because I’m not girly enough and straight girls find me attractive but don’t want to be with me because I don’t have a penis. But what can you do hopefully one day I’ll find someone
I sincerely hope that someone will come around to you eventually; I'm at this point in my life as well, just kind of waiting, even though sometimes thinking about this stuff definitely brings me down. But that's part of our lives anyway. And I'm sure there are tons of queer girls who prefer not-so-girly females.
