Hi all! Lately I've met a lot of people of 30+ years coming out as trans late in life. We all have similar stories. I would love to known your story about how did you realised that you're trans and why do you think you didn't came out before. I will start. I'm AFAB and the first time I took time to think about me being transgender I was 14yo. Before that I was this little weird kid who was constantly fighting with his parents and society because I didn't want to use earrings, dresses, pink, etc. I rejected the idea of everything that was feminine. I thought I was going to grow a beard and a penis so I kept watching my father to learn how to shave (and tried with 5yo but cut my face in the process), I also started using my dad clothes when I was 12 but myself and all around me assumed I was just a Tomboy. Then I saw this movie at school "Ma Vie En Rose" and realised that little girl and I were very alike. Unfortunately the following week I watched another movie "The Party" about transsexuals dying because of AIDS and since that day I prayed every night that I didn't wanted to be transgender. At the end I promised I would never, ever talk about it or think about it anymore and embraced my woman life burying all this memories until years ago. Fast forward, 8 years ago I started playing a web based role playing game were I had a polygamous and bisexual female character. I started experimenting my sexuality in that fantasy way and for the first time accepted I might not be as heterosexual as I thought although I didn't let me try role-playing as a male until months ago (when my dreams about being a male started getting not so sporadic). I started playing a transgender male and everything felt so fucking good. Then, talking irl (In real life) with one of the puppet masters I use to play we started talking about chauvinism and trying to fit in society and without thinking too much I said I might be transgender. Then the idea kept popping in my mind and in conversations with her so I decided to let it flow. All the memories came back, the feelings, everything so this girl started talking to me as a male and everything felt "so fucking good". Since then I've been working towards a full acceptance of myself and even though it's hard sometimes because it's a long journey and many days I wake up full of doubts, I finally can say that for the first time I can picture myself as a happy human being in the near future.