My whole life I've always had crushes on guys, some very strong and long lasting ones. I always pictured myself with a boyfriend and fantasized about them and never questioned myself. I've even watched straight porn and lesbian porn but never really thought anything of it. I'm currently in my first relationship ever with a male and its going very well. However, about halfway into our 6 month long relationship I started worrying that I may be lesbian and/or bisexual. This is very confusing and frustrating to me because I've never had these thoughts before. Most of my friends growing up were females but I never felt sexually attracted to any of them, however at a young age I did have some weird truth or dare games with some of my female friends, but still never thought anything of it. I can't imagine a life without my boyfriend but at the same time the thought of being lesbian or bisexual still bothers me in the back of my head. I still don't feel all that sexually attracted to women but at the same time I can't stop thinking 'what if I am?' I've discussed my feelings with my boyfriend before and just recently told him I think I may be bisexual but for some reason I am still uneasy about the idea. I'm not sure if it's because I'm still adjusting to the idea or what. He is also the only one who I've come out to so far and I plan on keeping it that way until I figure things out. I love my boyfriend and am attracted to him but these thoughts make me feel like I am betraying him some how even though he knows about them. I really want to figure things out but I don't really know where to go from here and I fear hurting my boyfriend in the end which is the last thing I want. Any advice...?
Tbh, nothing you've written here indicates that you're bisexual...was there any particular reason these thoughts started or was it completely random? Just to respond to a few of the things you've written: lots of straight women watch lesbian porn, porn actually isn't a good indicator of sexuality surprisingly. And don't worry about the truth or dare games, I'm not sure what happened exactly but experimentation with the same sex is normal, especially while young. As for your boyfriend, you're certainly not betraying him but having these thoughts and it's great you were able to open up to him. There's nothing to worry about, I wouldn't even say you were "bicurious" or "heteroflexible", you seem completely straight to me. I'd say keep talking with your boyfriend about your concerns but if it starts to get worse, I'd consider seeing a counselor. This is just because you don't want it to develop into an obsession and if it gets to that point, it's better to speak with a professional. Try and keep your mind off it in the time being. Good luck
Firstly your not a lesbian because you start you realize you like girls even though you've liked both your entire life, lord knows I made that mistake. You seem pretty happy with your boyfriend so don't worry about that. A lot of streight girls like lesbian porn and play racy games with there female friends. Really think about what exactly you like about them. Do you actually like kissing girls or do you want to prove everyone that you could do it. Ya know stuff like that
