Firstly sorry, I didn't really know how to name this thread. Description is to follow. So, as you can read, I am 17. And I've never really been a relationship so far. About 3 or 4 years ago I fell in love with a guy for nearly a year but he didn't love me back and had a girlfriend at this time, so yeah I've never fallen in love again since then. Also I'm not a really popular person and I don't really care. I think I never flirted with anyone and I'm also not into romantic stuff. My reaction to love in general is mostly "Eew" and I don't know how to handle people telling me they like me or something. About 2 years ago a guy fell in love with me and I didn't love him back and I told him, that I'm not even sure if I like guys. I felt sorry for him, so I said maybe it'll be different in half a year or something, he should give me some time. Since then he asked like every 3-4 months if half a year is over yet. I think he got over it now but it took him a loooing while. >.< Now there's another friend who doesn't know what his feelings are for me and he's 21 or sth i think and he never had a girlfriend and he's actually just like me, doesn't like to talk about his feelings, is uncomfortable and embarrassed if he does and he has that "Eew love"-kind of feeling too. Yesterday he texted me that he dreamed of me and he is really confused about what I actually mean to him and he told me to be mean to him and tell him about people being more important to me than him and he apologized a hundred times and he must have felt really embarrassed about his message and the dramatic in it. And I would have felt the same to be honest. The thing is, I do like him and I tell him much more about myself than other people but he is just a friend to me. Actually I have to admit I got this "Eew" feeling again when I read his message but I tried to be nice and I don't want to loose him as a friend. I just can't handle this and I can't tell him that I want to be in a relationship with him because that would be a lie. I know that it would be the best if we stopped contact because that was the only way I could get rid of being in love with the guy I wrote about above, but I don't want that. Please help, I just can't handle people having feelings for me. Does anyone else have these problems too? Sometimes I feel like I'm immune to love haha
