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Anyone else used to believe they were straight?

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  1. HeFleBiGen

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    I used to believe I was straight for the longest time up until several months ago, when I found myself attracted to anime guys. (I'm still attracted to anime girls, as well as real-life girls.)

    But here's my whole backstory

    When I was around 14 or 15, I found myself spying on my brother getting dressed (he's a heavyset guy) and getting turned on. I felt kinda weird, yet excited. I also kinda felt ashamed around my parents cos I thought that if I told them I would get shunned.

    Somewhere before that time I found myself attracted to SpongeBob lifting weights in "No Nose Knows" but didn't think anything of it.

    Around the time I was spying on my brother I found myself attracted to that really heavyset wheezy dude on "American Dad" (I can't place his name tho.)

    I'm sorry if this is so-short but I have this weird thing where I can't put together events in vivid detail.

    Also, I know this sounds like I have an attraction to only anime guys, but every time I see a guy's gut in real life I feel slightly uncomfortable (which isn't typical of a 'straight' person, as they wouldn't care at all.)

    Anyone else used to believe they were straight for the longest time before finally coming to terms with yourself?
     
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    Yeah I just assumed I was straight for ages, not even denial straight really, I just didn't figure things out for a while.
     
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    That was JUST like me!
     
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    And once I figured it out I was like, man how did I not realise this before.
     
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    For the first 20+ years of my life. I had a couple of girlfriends (if getting married on the playground in 4th grade counts as having a girlfriend).
     
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    I think most or nearly all gay or lesbian people originally thought of themselves as straight. Society conditions us that way.
     
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    Not me. When I was a kid I was always like "hell no I don't want boys, ew." The typical kid reaction. But that went on for forever, before I learned - reading Tamora Pierce's books I think - that gay was a thing I could be. I think before that I would have identified as ace, or just procrastinated about it? But it's always definitely been obvious to me that I wasn't straight even before I knew how that all worked. Sure societal conditioning is 110% a thing, but I think there's also something to be said for knowing your own mind.
     
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    I thought I was straight. And for me for a long time I didn't question it because it was an okay fit. I do and did like guys a lot. I still do, and still lean in that direction, but my desires have expanded with time. I now see some small hints though I had potential to be attracted to women I didn't realize before.
     
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    I'm sure most people thought that. I used to presume I was straight until I realized I just don't like anybody in a sexual/romantic way. (Ace guy here.) The irony is that now that I know I'm trans male, if I wasn't asexual, I'd be gay, because I think guys are hot.
     
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    Well I am the exact opposite. I used to be a lesbian until I identified as a guy, so now I'm straight!
     
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    Yip! I thought I was straight. I knew I would have "girl crushes" but I just thought it was because I would tell myself that I just really wanted to be like the women involved, rather than it being actual attraction. Later in life I started to realise that I wasn't straight, that I was at least a little bit bisexual but at that stage in my life things weren't good and I couldn't really deal with that on top of everything else so it kept getting pushed to the back of my head. It's only in the last few years that I have started to really understand things and am able to look back on my life and really see what was going on.
     
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    Yeah. That was the unspoken social norm, and especially at the time, with no internet and surrounded with people who abided (or at least, pretended to abide) by that norm, I didn't question myself. It didn't help that I'm pretty much aromantic and somewhat asexual as well, which means that I wasn't even crushing on anyone, really, and thus not noticing that things were different.

    I still don't care much about relationships, mind you, but now I'm aware that if I end up with someone, their gender won't matter.
     
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    Yes I thought I was straight until less than 2 years ago. I guess it was because I am bisexual and so I do like men too and being gender non-conforming took up a lot of my "time" on top of that. Also, being pretty "masculine" in my style and a little overweight and awkward for the longest time, no one ever really wanted to be with me anyway so I didn't get to express my sexuality and experience it fully so over time I stopped even thinking that I could ever be with anyone ever. What's more, I don't know any gay or bi women, I'm sure I've met some but I never knew if they were anything other than straight.

    But a year and a half or so ago I became aware randomly that I do feel attracted to women as well and then it became more and more obvious once I acknowledged it. Now I definitely look at everyone, men and women, all the same. I'd like to try be with a woman but I don't know where to meet queer women and I'm not American or west european so there's not a clear scene for this or groups
     
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    I used to think I was straight in highschool, but I never really gave much thought about being in a relationship. I knew I liked guys and had crushes on a few, but I wasn't really interested in dating anyone. It wasn't until I got into college I started to realize that I'm attracted to women as well. Hell, I even fell in love with one of my female friends and confessed to her in my final semester. Since then, I've had crushes on men, women, and non-binary folk, but might be leaning more towards women. It's a real trip after all these years, and I kinda wished I had known sooner, but I doubt my highschool would be a good place to seek a girlfriend--it was a Roman Catholic Highschool that still holds homophobic and transphobic ideals.
     
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    I'm not really sure... I guess for me I just assumed I was. I remember being a young kid and knowing the way I looked at boys was different than the way my brother looked at boys.

    I had plans of being a missionary and getting married. But, all that changed in one fell swoop. Around the time when I turned twelve with hormones raging I knew what my thoughts and fantasies were. I remember praying for the thoughts to go away and really having an internal struggle trying to figure it all out.

    Long story short... When I was thirteen I was molested. I didn't fully accept what happened for about 5 years and didn't fully accept my sexuality and come out for about 8 years. I was 21 when I came out fully.
     
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    I just assumed i was straight, never thought about the possibility of being gay, even when i had a girlfriend and didn't feel anything when i kissed her or when i would occasionally get off to gay porn i still thought of myself of straight. I guess it was a mix of denial and not really thinking about it tbh.
     
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    Yeah I was in denial.
     
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    Yup, i thought that until i was 19. I always liked guys, but i dismissed the fantasies, thinking they were something straight people fantasized too every now and then. I liked women, and i was sure of that, so i simply thought i was straight.

    When i entered in the university, i started to have more contact with the LGBT world, was there were many openly LGBT people in there. There i discovered bisexuality was a thing (i heard it before, but never thought much about it), and, seeing those people being so open about it made me think about my own fantasies and attractions. It fell like a bomb: "Hey, yes, i like women, but what i feel when i think about men isn't something most straight people feel. This "bisexual" thing describes me better than "straight"!.

    So, ye, it took me almost two decades in this world to figure it out. :stuck_out_tongue_closed_eyes: