The title pretty much says it but first let me give you a bit of my backstory. I'm a 19yo gay who lives in Germany and who is the son of Turkish immigrants. I've been living in the closet for my entire live and I've reached the point in my live where I just grew tired of censoring myself and wanting to come out so that I can finally live my life. The problem is that if I came out now I would most likely be mentally and possibly physically abused by my parents and I might end up being kicked out, so the next logical step for me would be to move out and become financially independent before I do that. My current Job is anything but stable and my paycheck isn't enough for me to pay rent, bills and essentials like food. So I decided to apply for an apprenticeship this year (which takes around three years to complete here) so that I have a more stable Job and a better paycheck. So all that's left for me is to wait three years until I can finally come out, right? Well it's a little more complicated than that. My parents are very open about them wanting to get me married as soon as I complete my apprenticeship and have a solid income. My mom even started to bring up her best friends daughter in conversations (a 15yo girl who I've never met in person btw) and she keeps on mentioning how we have similar interests or straight up even tells me how she'd LOVED to have her as a daughter-in-law. So basically she tries to get me interested in her as a potential bride. I was supposed to start my apprenticeship this September, but to be completely honest I didn't even apply to any companies and used Covid as an excuse to my parents because of this. So here I am, in this never ending cycle of me not being to come out because I'm not financially independent, me not being financially independent because my parents would pressure me into marriage right afterwards, and me not wanting to marry a woman because I'm gay (and also because I don't want to ruin someone else's life just so that I can solve my own problems) The only person that I came out to thus far is my older cousin who is also gay, but I can't ask him for more then emotional support since he's in a similar situation and coming out to my siblings isn't an option since they're the kind of people who immediately say the f-word whenever there is a queer person on tv. I don't have any IRL friends either that I could go to so here I am, asking my fellow LGBTQ+ members for advice onto how to deal with this situation because I'm seriously starting to loose my mind. Thanks in advance!!